The Ultimate Gift

I have to start out by saying I have many ways of expressing my gratitude about the many blessings in my life, but it makes it extra special sharing it with all of you.

As I am sure you all know by now, Chad and I are expecting our first beautiful daughter May 2012. Her name is Madison, and I know she will be the most precious angel on this earth. I am so excited, and thrilled to start this new chapter in our lives and to be able to teach her all the rights and wrongs, and to help guide her so she can live, again, in heaven someday. I know that we are not only going to be a blessing to her, but she will be the best thing that has ever happened to us. I know the future holds trials and there will be many learning situations at hand and that will only make us grow stronger as individuals and as a family.

We are hoping to be able to move back to Colorado really soon, so our families can all be close and the new grandma's and grandpa's can come see their little granddaughter whenever they please. Until then she will have a nice cozy little room for her in our apartment.

Madison already has quite the closet full of clothes already! Chad is been so cute and has been buying all these cute little outfits and surprising me by putting them in my stocking. We also just bought the most precious dress from baby gap and I can not wait to put her in it!

Little Madison is now 17 weeks in my belly, almost half way there! She is extremely healthy as far as we could tell from the Quad marker screening, and on our 20 weeks visit we will do an ultrasound showing the 4 chamber of her heart, and all the parts of her brain and we will be able to make sure everything is still going we:) She has a very strong heartbeat at 160 BPM. I am still waiting for those little feet to give me a good ol' kick in the ribs so hopefully I can feel her soon!!

We are Expecting!

Ok! So I can not even describe how good it feels to get it out in the open! I was so excited I just could not wait anymore to share the exciting news! Our baby is due to arrive May 23-25 of 2012! Crazy thing is, is May 23 is my mommas birthday so they may just share the same day:)

I wanted to get the chance to describe to everyone how the process worked.. and no I do not mean the typical way where the cup watered the seed;p I was not able to get pregnant much on my own so it required a lot of time and patience. I had to get on a pill called Chlomid which helped my eggs to mature since mine never did that on their own AKA ovulation. Once the doctor "okayed" the eggs I then had to insert HCG which is a natural pregnancy hormone, but we just gave my body a boost. The injection had to go right into my stomach, but the difficult part about this was that I had to mix the HCG in a little bottle and insert it myself at home, and I had no idea how to do that! But long story short, I overcame it. Then the exciting news came 2 weeks later! I then had to start taking progesterone (which is another natural hormone we produce, my body just needed an extra boost) for 2 months every night before I went to bed and that was just a messy situation.. literally! I am now 13 weeks and everything is going wonderfully besides the morning sickness I have had for the last 2 months!

Both of our families are so excited and can not wait to be grandparents, great grandparents, aunts and uncles!

OH and I can't forget to tell you how I told the daddy to be! So just a short explanation first of why I did it this way.. So when ever I shower we do this little thing where I put a lot of soap on my stomach and then will just write a little note that usually says "I love you" and then I will call Chad in to have him see (sorry if this is to much info lol). So anyways I knew he was coming home from work so I hopped in the shower lathered up my stomach with soap and had "I'm prego" written across so that when he came home to give me a kiss while I was in the shower he looked down and saw what I had written and he was so excited! He was like "Love are you joking?" and kept saying "no no there is no way" haha so it was very cute:)

So that is the wonderful news in a nutshell! We will be having plenty more to share very soon!!!

Crazy Life!

I thought I would do some updating on mine and Chady's CRAZY LIFE! I know it has been forever since I blogged last, and let me just tell you it drive me nuts because I absolutely LOVE blogging!!

So my last blog was about our ACN trip to San Jose, CA! I still can't even begin to tell you how excited I am!! Now we are just waiting for September to come around the corner so we can go to Charlotte, North Carolina.

I Have been working like crazy, but still not as much as most people do so I can't complain too much I suppose haha. I work about 40-50 hours a week depending on the week, and I am never letting a day go by that I am not showing, or telling someone about ACN. I can't even begin to tell you how exhausted I am, because my life is never ending. Chady is working full time as well, at Sears, and just got moved to the appliances department which is like a promotion! haha He also got asked by the owner of RC Willey (a furniture company) to come work for them because he was so impressed with his Sales ability. What can I say I married quit the guy;p I am so proud of him and I both. We only get to hang out with each other starting at 10 p.m so we usually have pretty late nights so we can get some time together.

I also have come to a big self realization about my skin disease. I have never been one to feel sorry for myself, or never been one to ask for others to feel sorry for me as well. I always looked at it as an unfortunate thing, but as an unfortunate thing that could be much worse. What I realized though is that I have been given ann opportunity to bless peoples lives more than I think I realized, and I notice this more and more when people share with me how inspired they are. And I can't help to think to myself "I, inspire you?". I feel so happy and tear up every time someone messages me about how I inspire them, or how I gave them courage, and it is such a warm feeling that makes me smile for hours. I had to share that just because it really made me smile when an RVP (Regional Vice President) of our company was so inspired by me that he said he wanted to share my story with thousands, and that God has a purpose larger than what Chad and I even know, and it just made me so happy. This man is well known in our company and is even recognized in Success from Home Magazine, he always speaks in front of thousands, and just thinking that he wants to share my story was so amazing. So I realized that something I thought was so small, is so big to someone else, and if thats the case than my reason for being Bald has been justified, and I could stay content with being this way forever if it means changing the life of someone else.

OH P.S! They think they found a cure for Alopecia! HAHA pretty cool!

So anyways.. thats our life in a nut shell. We figure work our ever living butts off now, and play later... but not too much later:p Mark my words we will go places, and its just around the corner...

Acn international Event, changed my outlook on life and my future

So as most of you know by now, I was able to finally make it to an International event! And this time i was in San Jose, California (next one in September in Charlotte, North Carolina).

I always heard so many wonderful things about attending this event, that it will "change your life", that "you can't become Senior Vice President without attending these events". No the money does not go to any of my up-line, or to the co-founders the money we pay is for our seat in the arenas which are always sold out. like at least 20, 00 people worth. I didn't fully understand how this event could be SUCH a big deal, until this weekend. I was pumped before, but now not only am I pumped, I know my future will change in only a matter of a few years.

Chad and I have so many goals for ourselves in our lives, and we know all that can be possible with the blood, sweat and tears we put in now, and the life we can have in just a year if we wanted. I know all of this sounds so crazy, and so surreal to most of you. I know most of you think this is still a scam and think to yourself "Oh man, what is Brooke doing she is going to get screwed" but I want you to know that I have yet to be screwed over, I have seen this company work because I am one of them who has made residual income. I now know there is nothing that can stand in my way to keep me from going to the top.

We got the opportunity to listen with billionaire entrepreneur and endorser, Donald Trump who's only company he endorses without personally making money for himself is ACN. I also got to hear from Publisher of Success magazine, Darren Hardy. These are two guys who make a lot of money, but recognize this exceptional opportunity, and after hearing them talk about ACN in such an amazing way I knew this wasn't going anywhere.

So I don't want to write this in hopes for people to maybe wake up, I am writing it in hopes that people will start taking my decisions a little more seriously so I don't have to say "I told you so" in a few years.

Here are some wonderful things I heard from Donald Trump, Darren Hardy, and the co-founders of ACN:
1. Grow personally in every area of your life.
2. With ACN you can have a great professional life, and personal life.
3. Acn will give you residual income, and will bless your residual outcome of your life.
4. This is NOT get rich quick, there is hard work to be done. ANYTHING THAT HAS VALUE DOES NOT COME EASY.
5. There will be disappointments. Somedays I will feel like quitting, somedays I will say I don't know if I can make it, but I will NEVER quit.
6. ACN is a documented company, not a company just starting up hoping we will make it.
7. Fed your faith not your fears

I can't wait to accomplish so much, and build a wonderful life together with my Husband. I love you!

Ignite your Beauty

"The western women will save the world"- The Dalai Lama

I wanted to start off my blog with that quote. Basically what it is saying, is that because of our freedom we do not having anything standing in our way such as; government, and other religions that do not allow us as much freedom and right to stand up for what is right. It is up to us beautiful women to change the way we view beautiful, and how we can allow ourselves to feel beautiful all the time.

I recently went to a convention about Igniting your Beauty. I was invited by a friend who thought I should come because she saw how happy I was with myself in the picture of my husband and I with my hair off. The truth is, I am not as comfortable within my skin than most people think. There are so many things that just allow me to be brave, and strong enough to overcome my trouble to find beauty within myself. The first thing, is my lovely husband who never lets a day go by without telling me how beautiful I am with and without hair. Now, do I always believe him, no! There are days I feel horrible, and that I just can't stand to look at myself, and I can say confidently that I know I am not the only woman who goes through this occasionally.

It is time to....

Star in your own life

If you could live your life feeling more beautiful, and more confident about that one area on your body what would it change?

would you have the unshakable confidence to take your movie, and your story to the big screen? After all, we all have a story to tell so that that one person who was meant to hear it can then learn and grow.

These are all things we were asked to think about at the convention. I had the pleasure of listening to amazing women who were able to reach that time in their lives where they said they had enough. They were done not being enough for their husbands, and more importantly for themselves.

I am pretty sure I was the youngest woman there, and I was first worried that nothing would pertain to me, but I had my Break through, and Ah Ha moments so many times throughout the time I was with the ladies.

There were so many times I was actually really proud of myself for not bursting out in tears, though it would not have mattered, I could just feel the pain a lot of those ladies were going through, but how strong they were becoming.

I had the honor of listening to so many great speakers, but one in particular stood out to me. She is a make up artist, and a very successful one who has worked with many talented stars. She talked about make up and how it can either Mask or Magnify, enslave or serve, hide or heighten, and crutch or crown.

She went on to share that we as women cover ourselves without even using make up. We do a mental block of ourselves, and don't allow others to see truly who we are. It can start with a broken heart, by holding a grudge and never letting it go, becoming greedy, becoming dirty in our thoughts, and eventually our face begins to fade and not even you can recognize yourself when you look in the mirror.

I could truly write so much more but I will focus on one last thing..

After hours and hours of listening to so many empowering women, and witnessing so many break through moments for myself, and other women, and learning how to open up, we did the "Angel walk". I had never experienced this before until that night. It started with us making a U-shape with one person standing in front of the other so it formed a path. There was this soft, and beautiful music. Each woman would have to close their eyes, and trust that the "angels" in the line would guide them through the U-shaped walk. Not only did we do that, but each and every single one of us would whisper into their ear what they were. When it came to be my turn, I broke down, it started with tears, but it was in my heart that I felt so amazing. Many would whisper, "you are beautiful" "you are joyous, and divine", and that "I have done good in this world". What I imagined as I was walking, I visioned myself walking through Heaven and having the angels of my Heavenly Father telling me that I had made it, that I accomplished what I was sent to this earth to do, and that I was on my way to meet God, and His son Jesus Christ. It was such an amazing feeling, and I hope we get to experience something similar to that when we do make it to Heaven.

I became a different woman at the end of that convention, it was only one day, and only one time that I have gone, but I met so many wonderful and expiring people who will always be in my heart.

There can never be a more beautiful you.

Best Mommy, ever!

For the spirit of Mother's Day, I had to write a tribute to my Hero, my best friend, and my sister at heart, My Mom.

I am so happy that every year there is an entire day dedicated to mothers who well deserve to be appreciated, and recognized.

MY mom is much different than most. She is young, and was dedicated to being a mother since the day I was born 20 years ago. She was 16, and I have no doubt that she was scared out of her mind. She could have put me up for adoption, or she could have done many other horrible things, because she wasn't ready to be a parent. But in our perspective, it was all meant to be. We grew together, and faced a lot of challenges together from day one. My mom is strong, she is loving, and she is caring. She set the rules for me when I needed rules, but she was there as a friend for me when I needed one. She always remembered to put parenting first, and being the cool parent last, she made me do chores, clean my room, and always do my homework before I was aloud to go anywhere. She set the bar high for me, that I would succeed in life, and she still does.
She looks out for my health, and makes sure that I am taken care of before she takes care of herself. She based her life decisions all for me. From who she dated, when she went to school, who she hung out with etc. I am also prouf to say that she was able to handle all this while still getting her highschool education, and later becoming a Nurse. SHe never gave up, so she could give me a healthy and pleasean life.

She is my Hero for keeping me in my life, when I am sure others told her not to. She is my best friend because she has ALWAYS been there for me as a child needs her mom. She is my sister at heart for our challenges we have faced together, and have shed tears together. And she is my mom because we were put in eachothers to bless eachother, because God knew that we would be the perfect Mother and daughter together.

I am still her baby girl, and I always will be. And I am proud to have such a strong, beautiful, and

amazing mother who I know will never give up on me, and will never stop wanting what is best for me. Happy Mothers day MOMMA!!! I Love you!

New Eating plan

Ok so I have officially gained all my weight back from what I lost with my Thyroid problem, which is great! Bun now I feel gross. I went and bought all these skinny jeans, and I felt so proud that I could fit in a size 2! haha but that has changed... I went to put on my jeans just yesterday, and I got them over my butt, but as I go to button them, my hips got in the way, and now they don't fit!! I have become too comfortable with eating whatever I want, and the doctor told me to beware of that because it is hard to break the habit once I start taking my hormone replacement pills to regulate my Thyroid. SO I am doing a diet. Not a diet to loose weight again, but a diet full of only 1600 calories a day which is 2oo calories less than what I should be having a day. I want to tighten everything starting with my butt. Chad loves my butt lol so I don't plan to loose it, but make it hard as a rock!!!

I decided to make note of this on my Blog so that everyone who reads this can give me crap when I eat like crap, and so I can remind myself of what my goal was, and why I am doing it. By the end of May I will have a four pack visible without me having to flex, and maybe have a nice muscle curve on my legs. I say maybe because no matter how active I was when I was younger I could never get the muscle curve on the back of my leg. I also want a little bump on my arms that make it look toned lol. I also feel like having a nicer body will make me feel better about myself when we go on our cruise in December because I am NOT going to be wearing a hot and sweaty wig all day at the pool, just a hat.

So I will be toned by May 29th!
Hold me to it!

Easter

“With all my heart and the fervency of my soul, I lift up my voice in testimony as a special witness and declare that God does live. Jesus is His Son, the Only Begotten of the Father in the flesh. He is our Redeemer; He is our Mediator with the Father. He it was who died on the cross to atone for our sins. He became the firstfruits of the Resurrection. Because He died, all shall live again. ‘Oh, sweet the joy this sentence gives: “I know that my Redeemer lives!” ’ May the whole world know it and live by that knowledge, I humbly pray, in the name of Jesus Christ, the Lord and Savior, amen.”

I could not have a blog, and not wrote about the only man who has been there for me every step of the way since the time I was born and before. His name is Jesus Christ. He is the most wonderful man who has ever walked this Earth. This month and year is a celebration for His resurrection. He had been mocked, betrayed, and torchured, all for us. I love the song "I know my redeemer lives", and what joy that sentence does give. "He lives, he lives who once was dead, he lives my ever living head. He lives to bless me whith his love, He lives to plead for me above, He lives my hungry soul to feed, He lives to bless in times of need. He lives to guide me with his light, He lives to comfort me when faint, He lives to hear my souls complaint. He lives, and while he lives i'll sing, he lives my Prophet, Priest, and King."

I am so thankful for the knowledge I have of Him. I have been through a lot in my life, something that I know would be a struggle to others, but I know I have overcome so much with His help. I know that whatever I go through, he has gone through worse, and is the only one who has truly felt my pain. I know that every trial I am blessed with is Him molding me into the person He wants me to become. I know that when I speak to Him, He listens and in magical ways he answers my questions. I can not see Him, but I can feel His Spirit, and feel His guidance every step of the way. I am so happy He died for us so we could be forgiven, and live on Earth to prove our righteousness as return to live with Him some day.

He is my Father in Heaven, who truly know my heart inside and out. He is the best Father I could have ever asked for. He is Jesus Christ. So remember Easter is not just about candy, or Easter egg hunts, although it is fun, but the True purpose is to celebrate the one who died on the cross, and poured his blood so we could be forgiven and have life, and have a chance that we can be with him some day. We were once up in Heaven rooting for him and his plan, and were so excited to live life on Earth, and live right to be with him again, so lets not forget why we are here in the first place because we chose to be here in this specific time for a reason:) I can not to wait to meet Him again someday, I can only Imagine.

HAPPY EASTER!

Homemade Magnets

Ok so this idea was inspired by my friend Larissa Clemens.  The other day I was over at her house and she had the cutest magnets and I asked her where she got them, and she said she made them! So next paycheck I am making my way over to hobby lobby and getting my supplies!

What you need:

• A bag full of clear glass gems
• strong non-adhesive magnets (small enough to fit on back, but sturdy enough to carry weight of the Gem) 
• Mod Podge (a clear glue also found at your local craft store)
• Any fun paper or background you want to use on the magnet.

1. The first step is to cut out the photo or background ho you would like it to appear on the magnet, and make sure it fits the diameter of the glass gem.
2. Use the Mod Podge to glue the face of the image to the flat part of the gem.
3. Let dry (refer to the instructions on the Mod podge)
4. Use Mod podge or other glue, to glue the magnet the back of the picture, and your magnet is complete!

Candle Making

Ok, so I was looking at some idea for Easter and I came across this adorable and creative way to bring easter eggs to a whole new level!

Ok so what you need:

• fragrance oil of your scent: I like vanilla
• candle wicks
• and of course candle wax (this is all found at hobby lobby or any craft store)
• egg cup (see picture)

After this it becomes pretty self explanatory.  You die the Easter eggs like you would normally, EXCEPT do not boil the eggs they need to be left raw, so you need to be extra careful when dying them.  Reason is, because you need to pock a whole at the top of the egg using a tip of a pen (no knife it will crack too easily) and dump the egg out of the top it is alright to crack the top off after pocking it, just do it lightly.  Make sure the egg is completely out.  

Once your candle wax is made (to proper size of course) place it in the egg gently with the candle wick in place and you have a beautiful and festive candle!

My Brothers and Sisters

So last night when I was lying in bed trying to fall asleep, I had a thought that came across my mind, and that thought was me being a big sister.  I know it is strange and that it has been a few years since I became one, but I just knew that I was mean to become a sister at the time I did, in 2007 when Preston was born, but we will get to this story later.  I grew up just having me myself and I, and always wished I had siblings.  I always thought I had brothers and sister out in this world somewhere, that my dad had gotten married and had kids but I never knew until I became a sophomore in high school.  My mom wanted to hide from me that my dad had called because she wanted me to be 18 years old, but I knew just by the feeling I had in my heart that it was him that called, and a picture of my dad and I at their senior prom had fallen at my feet off the wall.  She eventually gave in and told me that it was him, and the first thing I asked was "Do I have any brothers and sisters?" and she said yes, you have a brother and a sister, and at that moment I was immediately in tears.  A lot of drama happened then after that, so I never got to meet them that following week, and the sad thing was that they still did not know about me, not even my dad knew I knew he called that night, so I had to go on another 2 years knowing I had another family.  My senior year of high school, I decided to bulk up the courage, I got my dads phone number from my mom, and I called... We met in April of 2008 at Red Robin right before my senior prom, and boy was that scary!!  I met my dad, my step mom Jeri and my brother Jonathan and sister Alexis!  Jonathan, Alexis and I clicked right away, we were inseparable ever since.  I would stay the night with them, go hang out with them and we just filled each other in on our lives that we had missed out on.  we have all been in arguments, and really not talked for weeks because we were so upset with each other, but that is because we are brothers and sisters, isn't that normal??  Alexis has had to share the right side of her bed with me, when I didn't have a place to go, she shared her closet with me, and jonathan let me eat all of his favorite food!  And we are, and always be brothers and sister, and nothing is EVER going to get in the way of that.

Now, to talk about the day I became a sister for the first time, that I actually had living in the house with me.  His name is Preston Daniel Cogburn.  Preston became the light of my life, an angel really sent to help me through a really rough patch in my life.  At first I was kind of upset because it was hard for me to have another sibling that was from another dad and that I knew was going to have more attention.  So I know that sounds really selfish, but it was just really hard for me.  But as soon as he was born, I feel in love with him as if he was my own kid.  Still to this day I pray for him and Gavin that they will always be there for each other has good brothers to one another and help them through the rough times they may have ahead, and I want to show them that I am always there for them, in their hearts even when I may be far away.  Preston has such a sweet, kind heart and an amazing personality and my family is lucky to have him, and I am lucky to have had him living with me at the time I did, because he really was the glue that brought me and my family back together.

And how would I ever forget about my precious Gavin Bradley Cogburn.  He is also the light of my life, and I feel so much more responsible for him since he is still just a little baby.  Gavin, is much different in Preston's personality, not in the way that he isn't sweet, adorable and loving, but that he has a much quieter personality, he is so loving and so peaceful, and so creative!  I know that him and Preston will make a great team together,and I know they will know they can count on us "bean bean and moose" (me and chad). haha! I am also lucky to have him, and I enjoy seeing his cute face on our video phone!  He will always yell "BEAN BEAN" until he finally gets my attention.  He has cute little pudgy cheeks, and big brown eyes!
Just in case this story wasn't crazy enough, I still have one more sister I have not mentioned yet!  Her name is Krysta, and we met her february in 2010.  Yes, she is 21 only 6 months older than me, crazy huh?!  She is also married since December 2009, and she lives in Colorado.  I remember the first time I found out, I was working at Applebee's here in Utah, and Alexis texted me, and I got my phone taken away! so I had to go the whole shift freaking out!!  So when I got home, I talked to my dad, and to be honest I was excited but more angry, not with her but with the situation because I knew that this was the same time I was being born.  I became humbled that night though because I recognized that what's done is done and in the past, and I had another sister that I had to look forward to getting to know!  It took quite sometime before we got to actually meet, but we just take one step at a time:)

This is how I want to arrive at Heaven's Gate.

"I don't want to drive up to the pearly gates in a shiny sports car, wearing beautifully, tailored clothes, my hair expertly coiffed, and with long, perfectly manicured fingernails.

I want to drive up in a station wagon that has mud on the wheels from taking kids to scout camp.

I want to be there with a smudge of peanut butter on my shirt from making sandwiches for a sick neighbors children.

I want to be there with a little dirt under my fingernails from helping to weed someone's garden.

I want to be there with children's sticky kisses on my cheeks and the tears of a friend on my shoulder.

I want the Lord to know I was really here and that I really lived."

— Marjorie Pay Hinckley

My Wish

I was just thinking the other day, when I was in 6th grade about I had all these fantasies about what my Ideal home would be.  I always said I would have rainbow colored walls, and pink carpet in every bedroom and I wanted a HUGE house with my own dance studio in it, and I wanted to buy an entire pet store and make a little house for them right next to me, so they could be happy:)  So I do not want to rainbow colored walls anymore hah, thank goodness!!  However, I still want a dance studio, I want a home theater, and on our anniversary Chady and I talked about putting our own Olive Garden in our house with a 24 hour staff, but we might change our minds to a casa bonita!:)  I have so many goals in life I know I will reach within the next 10 years!  I wish to be successful, and I know Chady and I are almost there:)  I want to move back to Colorado, be able to help my family out when they need, as they have helped me.  I want to donate money to all of my favorite charities, and I want  to be able to raise my kids and help with my baby brothers in the best way possible:)  They both have diabetes, and it is so expensive so I want to be able to help with that  haha.
I am just going to take a wack at what Chad would want lol, I know he would want a baseball field in our backyard, and maybe a jungle gym to play with our kids on, of course we would both agree on a pool with an awesome slide!  and have lots of little place for a nice barbeque!  The most import thing is that we do not spoil our kids too much. They will not grow up being spoiled little kids getting whatever they want when they want it, of course we will love them and provide for them as we will be able to, but they will know they have to work for what they want, that it will not be handed to them.  It feels so good to dream, especially because I know it is only a few years ahead of me.  I am a little bit more wiser than I was when I was a kid, just a little bit though, and I know that our feature will be bright and we will have many blessing to look forward to, it may be a load of work to get there, but it's coming.. :)  My joy that keeps going is my family, my siblings and making sure they are taken care of, and also my kids that I do not yet have but know I will provide the best for them in all I can do.

Where'd all the good people go?

Lately I have been listening to the Jack Johnson song quite a bit, and it really got me to question where DID all the good people go?!  I feel like I am so angry with people, so I really just needed to write about it. I mean I understand, life is hard!  We have to work harder to afford to pay for rent, for food, for gas, and to really just have a life, but I do not understand what why people are letting it get to the best of them.  It is so sad to me because all I see are people who are mean to there own family because they are not happy with their own self worth, all I see are kids picking on other kids, I see friends turn their back on friends, and not even taking a second to go out of their way to see how things are going.  I see it more and more, and this whole world is starting to fill with smug! haha  The one thing that brought me to write about this, is because I am most tired of being treated this way.  You know the saying " treat people how you want to be treated" well that is no longer the case anymore, it is treat people how you WOULD want to be treated, but they don't care enough to treat you nicely back.  I am tired of making myself look dumb in order to make someone else look better and them turning around and actually making me look more stupid (if that makes sense), I am tired of being there for someone who in return can not be there for me, I am tired of feeling like a complete loser because I don't have an attitude that makes me "fit in" with everyone else.  I have seen it time and time again because I don't drink, because I am Mormon, because I live MY LIFE how I think it should be lived, I get persecuted for it. I am tired of getting put down because I know what I am doing is what gives me such a positive attitude in life because I know I have something to look forward to.   I think we all, including myself, need to take a second and think about the little things.  Not how well you fit in with others, not who has the coolest clothes, or better home, or more money, we need to focus on making this world as best of a place as we can with all the turmoil going on.  It is not the time to give up and get so stressed to the point you can't even put a smile on your face to brighten someone else's day.
Whenever I go to the grocery store people are always so dang moody, and what I can't ever get my head around is if I had a freaking horrible day, you don't see me cutting you off, rolling my eyes at you, and swearing all obnoxiously, so therefore they do not have an excuse.  I might go off on a tangent for a second, but I also want to know why people feel it is necessary to swear in unnecessary situations.  We all may swear every now and then when we stub our toe, or hit our "funny bone", but why say it in the middle of a stupid sentence, I mean honestly you look dumb, sound dumb, and your IQ dropped about 50 points!  I will stop writing now, but it feels SO good to actually get this out because I just could not take it anymore.  So just so we are clear, I am not saying I think that I am better than everyone else, all I ask for is for people to be nice, get over themselves and start treating people they way they SHOULD be treated, we all have a little room for improvement. :)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=43VyrUFEyNo

Wonderful Recipe, one of my favorites!

So I made a cake for our anniversary, and I decided I would share my wonderful recipe!

FIRST STEP:  You will need to buy yellow cake mix bake as instructed but in a round pan ( I just bought a pre made cake), also sprinkles of your choice, frosting of your choice, garnish of your choice(cherries, or strawberries), and 4-5 flavors of your favorite colors of JELLO.

SECOND STEP:  place 4-5 cups out and in each take 1 tablespoon of each flavor of JELLO and put it in the bowl.  You will need to boil water simultaneously.  When water is finished boiling pour 1/3 cup of boiling water into each cup, stir.

THIRD STEP:  You will need to cut the round cake in half and place each half on foil.  Take a tablespoon and begin to splash the colors on BOTH halves wherever you would like to.

FIRTH STEP:  Wrap each half in Seran wrap and place in fridge for about an hour.  After, unwrap each half and lay each one on its back so you can see the jello you splashed.

FIFTH STEP: Next you will take your frosting and do just a little bit on the bottom half to use as a glue for the top part of the cake to stick on. Begin frosting the whole cake inside, and out. TIP ( I placed my cake foil, then placed it on the decorating plate I chose to use so it doesn't get the plate messy. Also when finished, clean off your spreading knife and get it wet and smooth out lumps of frosting. When finished frosting, carefully place your hand under cake (unfrosted area) and pull the foil out gently, retouch cake if needed).

Then sprinkle edges, and you are done!

Our Anniversary!!!

I can not believe that sunday, March 13, 2011 will be our 1 year anniversary!! When I look back at everything we have done, and accomplished this year it seems like it went by SO fast!!  We started out living in Colorado with my in-laws, then we moved back to Utah and started going to school.  We also joined a business, that is slowly changing our lives one check at a time!  We now live in a cute little apartment together and are lives are so darn busy!!  4 days out of the week I have school, everyday I work, twice out of the week we are at Business meetings, and whenever we can we squeeze in our own Private Business Receptions at our house, talk about crazy!!
I love our life together, and I can not wait to see what is on store for us this year, and forever!  There is never a dull moment, and the thing I love the most is how we can still act like total idiots in front of each other even though we have been in each others lives for 4 years!  We always chase each other around our little tiny apartment, tackle each other and playfully beat each other up, and it never gets old! ( I just feel bad for the people below us) haha.  I am so happy that him and I have the privilege of being together, not just until death to us part, but eternity.  Chady is my best friend, and the best husband anyone could ever ask for!  Him and I have been through SO much together, and we continue to grow.  He loves me for me, bald or with hair, eyebrows or without his love for me is amazing.  Love you, my love!!!

My New Life

this woman is incredible. I saw her story in the magazine today, such an inspiration. She is from Provo, UT and was in an airplane crash.

Valentines Day Dinner

We celebrated Valentines day a little early this year since we both have work on the actual day:)  I wanted to surprise him with a delicious dinner!  I made Homemade French Onion soup, spinach souffle, and Chocolate Orange mousse, along with some cookies and chocolate covered strawberries of course:D

here are some pics!