This is how I want to arrive at Heaven's Gate.

"I don't want to drive up to the pearly gates in a shiny sports car, wearing beautifully, tailored clothes, my hair expertly coiffed, and with long, perfectly manicured fingernails.

I want to drive up in a station wagon that has mud on the wheels from taking kids to scout camp.

I want to be there with a smudge of peanut butter on my shirt from making sandwiches for a sick neighbors children.

I want to be there with a little dirt under my fingernails from helping to weed someone's garden.

I want to be there with children's sticky kisses on my cheeks and the tears of a friend on my shoulder.

I want the Lord to know I was really here and that I really lived."

— Marjorie Pay Hinckley

My Wish

I was just thinking the other day, when I was in 6th grade about I had all these fantasies about what my Ideal home would be.  I always said I would have rainbow colored walls, and pink carpet in every bedroom and I wanted a HUGE house with my own dance studio in it, and I wanted to buy an entire pet store and make a little house for them right next to me, so they could be happy:)  So I do not want to rainbow colored walls anymore hah, thank goodness!!  However, I still want a dance studio, I want a home theater, and on our anniversary Chady and I talked about putting our own Olive Garden in our house with a 24 hour staff, but we might change our minds to a casa bonita!:)  I have so many goals in life I know I will reach within the next 10 years!  I wish to be successful, and I know Chady and I are almost there:)  I want to move back to Colorado, be able to help my family out when they need, as they have helped me.  I want to donate money to all of my favorite charities, and I want  to be able to raise my kids and help with my baby brothers in the best way possible:)  They both have diabetes, and it is so expensive so I want to be able to help with that  haha.
I am just going to take a wack at what Chad would want lol, I know he would want a baseball field in our backyard, and maybe a jungle gym to play with our kids on, of course we would both agree on a pool with an awesome slide!  and have lots of little place for a nice barbeque!  The most import thing is that we do not spoil our kids too much. They will not grow up being spoiled little kids getting whatever they want when they want it, of course we will love them and provide for them as we will be able to, but they will know they have to work for what they want, that it will not be handed to them.  It feels so good to dream, especially because I know it is only a few years ahead of me.  I am a little bit more wiser than I was when I was a kid, just a little bit though, and I know that our feature will be bright and we will have many blessing to look forward to, it may be a load of work to get there, but it's coming.. :)  My joy that keeps going is my family, my siblings and making sure they are taken care of, and also my kids that I do not yet have but know I will provide the best for them in all I can do.

Where'd all the good people go?

Lately I have been listening to the Jack Johnson song quite a bit, and it really got me to question where DID all the good people go?!  I feel like I am so angry with people, so I really just needed to write about it. I mean I understand, life is hard!  We have to work harder to afford to pay for rent, for food, for gas, and to really just have a life, but I do not understand what why people are letting it get to the best of them.  It is so sad to me because all I see are people who are mean to there own family because they are not happy with their own self worth, all I see are kids picking on other kids, I see friends turn their back on friends, and not even taking a second to go out of their way to see how things are going.  I see it more and more, and this whole world is starting to fill with smug! haha  The one thing that brought me to write about this, is because I am most tired of being treated this way.  You know the saying " treat people how you want to be treated" well that is no longer the case anymore, it is treat people how you WOULD want to be treated, but they don't care enough to treat you nicely back.  I am tired of making myself look dumb in order to make someone else look better and them turning around and actually making me look more stupid (if that makes sense), I am tired of being there for someone who in return can not be there for me, I am tired of feeling like a complete loser because I don't have an attitude that makes me "fit in" with everyone else.  I have seen it time and time again because I don't drink, because I am Mormon, because I live MY LIFE how I think it should be lived, I get persecuted for it. I am tired of getting put down because I know what I am doing is what gives me such a positive attitude in life because I know I have something to look forward to.   I think we all, including myself, need to take a second and think about the little things.  Not how well you fit in with others, not who has the coolest clothes, or better home, or more money, we need to focus on making this world as best of a place as we can with all the turmoil going on.  It is not the time to give up and get so stressed to the point you can't even put a smile on your face to brighten someone else's day.
Whenever I go to the grocery store people are always so dang moody, and what I can't ever get my head around is if I had a freaking horrible day, you don't see me cutting you off, rolling my eyes at you, and swearing all obnoxiously, so therefore they do not have an excuse.  I might go off on a tangent for a second, but I also want to know why people feel it is necessary to swear in unnecessary situations.  We all may swear every now and then when we stub our toe, or hit our "funny bone", but why say it in the middle of a stupid sentence, I mean honestly you look dumb, sound dumb, and your IQ dropped about 50 points!  I will stop writing now, but it feels SO good to actually get this out because I just could not take it anymore.  So just so we are clear, I am not saying I think that I am better than everyone else, all I ask for is for people to be nice, get over themselves and start treating people they way they SHOULD be treated, we all have a little room for improvement. :)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=43VyrUFEyNo

Wonderful Recipe, one of my favorites!

So I made a cake for our anniversary, and I decided I would share my wonderful recipe!

FIRST STEP:  You will need to buy yellow cake mix bake as instructed but in a round pan ( I just bought a pre made cake), also sprinkles of your choice, frosting of your choice, garnish of your choice(cherries, or strawberries), and 4-5 flavors of your favorite colors of JELLO.

SECOND STEP:  place 4-5 cups out and in each take 1 tablespoon of each flavor of JELLO and put it in the bowl.  You will need to boil water simultaneously.  When water is finished boiling pour 1/3 cup of boiling water into each cup, stir.

THIRD STEP:  You will need to cut the round cake in half and place each half on foil.  Take a tablespoon and begin to splash the colors on BOTH halves wherever you would like to.

FIRTH STEP:  Wrap each half in Seran wrap and place in fridge for about an hour.  After, unwrap each half and lay each one on its back so you can see the jello you splashed.

FIFTH STEP: Next you will take your frosting and do just a little bit on the bottom half to use as a glue for the top part of the cake to stick on. Begin frosting the whole cake inside, and out. TIP ( I placed my cake foil, then placed it on the decorating plate I chose to use so it doesn't get the plate messy. Also when finished, clean off your spreading knife and get it wet and smooth out lumps of frosting. When finished frosting, carefully place your hand under cake (unfrosted area) and pull the foil out gently, retouch cake if needed).

Then sprinkle edges, and you are done!

Our Anniversary!!!

I can not believe that sunday, March 13, 2011 will be our 1 year anniversary!! When I look back at everything we have done, and accomplished this year it seems like it went by SO fast!!  We started out living in Colorado with my in-laws, then we moved back to Utah and started going to school.  We also joined a business, that is slowly changing our lives one check at a time!  We now live in a cute little apartment together and are lives are so darn busy!!  4 days out of the week I have school, everyday I work, twice out of the week we are at Business meetings, and whenever we can we squeeze in our own Private Business Receptions at our house, talk about crazy!!
I love our life together, and I can not wait to see what is on store for us this year, and forever!  There is never a dull moment, and the thing I love the most is how we can still act like total idiots in front of each other even though we have been in each others lives for 4 years!  We always chase each other around our little tiny apartment, tackle each other and playfully beat each other up, and it never gets old! ( I just feel bad for the people below us) haha.  I am so happy that him and I have the privilege of being together, not just until death to us part, but eternity.  Chady is my best friend, and the best husband anyone could ever ask for!  Him and I have been through SO much together, and we continue to grow.  He loves me for me, bald or with hair, eyebrows or without his love for me is amazing.  Love you, my love!!!