Thursday, February 10, 2011

God only made so many perfect heads, the rest he covered in hair.

It is a little scary for me to write about my hair loss, but I figure the more brave I am about it, the more confident I will feel.  I was just talking to my husband how looking at past pictures of my real hair makes me so sad sometimes, because I forget that there was even a time when I had hair.  For those who do not know, I have always had Alopecia Areata, but this last year it all disappeared.  I say disappeared because I honestly have no idea where ALL of that hair went.
Although my hair has gone away I still am thankful that I have a little bit left for me wig to comb in to;P  Most days I forget I am even wearing it, and feel confident that it actually looks real, but I will admit there are other days where I get frustrated that I can't put my hair off my face in a pony tail, I sweat half to death in the summer time, and sometimes my head gets so irritated from it being on for 8 + hours.
I have to share with everyone though how thankful, and blessed I am to have such a wonderful husband.  I know when we were just dating he would always hold my hair back to see what i would look like bald, but I was like "I will never be completely bald" haha, but I was wrong.  But he is so kind to me, and makes me feel like the most beautiful women in the world.  If we are at home and just hanging around, and I still have my wig on he will take it off for me, and always kiss my head.  If I were with anyone else, I know I would not feel as comfortable as I do with him.  There are days where I feel like I am so ugly then other girls who can just throw there hair up in a cute messy bun, and I just have funny looking random spurts of hair .lol.
There is a brighter side though that always keeps me going.  I know that this could always be worse, I could have no eyelashes, although my eye brows are already gone, but I also could be bald because of Cancer, and I am most grateful that it is just an auto-immune disease.  I also know that in our next life, I will be perfect.  I will have the most gorgeous long hair, and that always puts a smile on my face:)
I just thought I should write about it, so other people could further understand my condition!

I am also going to be brave and show pictures!! haha  With hair and without.

2 comments:

  1. Thanks for sharing. It does take a lot of courage to open up. You are a beautiful person and I am glad I know you!

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